horror (inside)

Can we actually ever get rid of all those memories that haunt us?

WOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! Regards, Fritz

There's absolutley nothing Horror-ble about this photo. It's a photo of you! Yes - true, we have hidden horrors we must deal with but this seems to be more of a thoughful look, maybe a bit of disquiet but nothing so horror-ble. On the technical side of things - this rocks!!! You are so skilled with that PS stuff! Nice job! Okay so maybe you should have hung a worm out of your mouth or something.

To me, this looks like a frozen scene from a B&W horror flick... something just fell over, or rapped on the window... and you haven't quite had the time to scream yet, though something is wrong.

 

As usual, your PS work is outstanding. I like what appears to be a tear-streak on your face, and moist eyes, nice touch!

It looks like a concept photo I have always wanted to do but never got round to it...Wonderful mood in this...Feel fear just looking at it. The bit of light on the other eye is class...

Mabye I'll make time for my shot...maybe..

"THis scared the crap out of my daughter this morning" Oh I feel so bad. I accidentally left it on my computer and she got up this morning to get ready for school.

I feel so bad.

I really meant it to be more mental.

Now who says this is so much post proccessing (it is). Maybe this is really ME and all the other pictures are really post proccesing and I wear lots of makeup.

Thanks guys. I really like this. Lots of work like the the Shadow.

I love the treatment!!

Now this is just what I was talking about. I think of this as gutsy and bold. You just let go and went for it. I'm not getting that from your eyes or your expression, but from your treatment and style. So, here, for me, it's less about what you were feeling in terms of your expression when the photo was taken and more about what you were feeling when you decided how to present it. So, each portrait really has two (probably more) sides. The part that's in the expression which tells us something. And the part that's in the presentation, which also tells us something. This one tips the scales toward presentation. Clearly, everyone has mentioned your PS skills, etc. so the treatment/presentation is really standing out here. Like I said, bold and unflinching.

"THis scared the crap out of my daughter this morning" Oh I feel so bad."

 

Try taking out the highlight from the lower right eye and show her again Micki.

 

My bet is she will no longer be frightened.

I completely agree with Fred as regards the treatment being the factor which drives this image to the extreme place it takes me too. For me the actual look on your face communicates precisely the same sense as does the treatment, the two aspects are a marriage that works! I am going to have to take back my comment about rolling in the grass, I'm kind of scared now.

You are right to Anthony and Gordon ~ wait don't leave me! LOL

 

Fred, yes their is not horror, more sadness.

 

Anthony, the horror is in the highlights. As an artist I knew if I took the highlights away it would be gone. The horror or scarry part would vanish and then I would only be sad. I have several other pictures that I can do like this but ONLY if I guess I have time. HA!

 

My poor husband was going "micki" I hate that picture. You look strung out!

Yep, but then again, are we not all somewhat strung out?

 

Gordon, take me or leave me, I am not always smiling. ~ aha! now go check out my silly faces! Go look at the end of my pictures in my comment section you will see them there.

I'm just pulling your leg. I have followed and commented on your other sunnier self portraits. As has been mentioned, we all have many sides and it takes more than one portrait to get any kind of accurate portrayal. It is interesting to note that the more detail you remove from a face the more elemental it becomes. I am now thinking of Pnina's homage to "The Scream" I also noted some comments that reinforce this idea on my recent self portrait in a fireplace door.

After living through a tormenting hell and finally being free of it, our once carefree and almost innocent heroin, thinks back on her experience. Only now does she realize her inner strenght and looks to a new future. A future of hope. Or is it? Has her experience made her stronger? Does she realize that she can overcome anything? Or has the event tapped into a different part of her? Created a small rip in her mind from which insanity has begun to flow? The End? I think not....

 

Love it! Classic horror and done better than most. The treatment is dead on. As is the look. All wrapped up nicely in a wide screen format. I can hear the flickering of the projector and smell stale buttery popcorn!

NOW we only need to write the book.

 

Thank you!

 

Gordon, I was being serious, in my portfolio at the bottom their are silly pictures of me. In the middle of the comments. I want you to go look at them. I think you will enjoy them. They are in a gif (movement slide show). You will get the essence of me. Also on my front page if you haven't "clicked" my portfolio picture there you will also see them (I think). There you will again find "more of me".

 

But then again after reading what Anthony wrote (who knows me well), I have to think he is dead on. :)

As I wrote to Rachel, every human has more than one side of his/her personality. I as looking a bit of your self portraits (and you have many) and reading your comments, I sense your character having a lot of life,laughter, life joy, and I think that you are not the one that panics fast...( my impression at least) so looking at this one as an experiment of expression, well done, well cropped, in high resolution, is fine, But I don't think it is really representing your character.....Horror is not a prominent characteristic of yours, even I really don't know you, only guessing... ;-))

Reminds me of an old film of Carl Th. Dreyer: Jeanne d`Arc, played of Falconetti. Same mood. Maybe a little hard crop?! Great work Micki,,,re niels

But, I do have peace to. I live life not with joy and am finally fine with my life and the way it is. So this is one of those pictures that shows another side of me. All of my self portraits show a different part of me.

 

Ever changing.

 

Niels, thank you. Light was my guide as always ;) You are a great master!

I looked at this for a long time before I read the title or the previous comments. I found it both lovely and filled with sorrow -- and thought it a beautiful, revealing, and creatively treated self portrait. Still do. Regards...

How wonderful! I love hearing you say that. I've lately been very in tune to the fact that the specific feelings and emotions that we are having when we create a photo don't necessarily get translated one-to-one to the viewer. Sometimes, strong feelings kind of go into a work of art one way and come out to the viewer very differently. I'm of the mind that as the long as the viewer feels something, there is no right or wrong interpretation. To reach people, no matter what the specific reaction, is what Micki has accomplished so well here. In my opinion . . .

I had to wait for a while before being coherent in commenting on this. This is a fantastic piece of work. It is disturbing but the eyes seem to draw you in, like I want to know what you're looking at and what the story is behind that gaze. It looks like a still frame from a horror flick, but there is also something more to it. You look pensive and very distant, almost sad and almost scared but not quite either.

 

I dig it.

 

-K

First I'll just say I love this image... no explanation, just do.

 

Next, I really can't see any horror. Sure, it's real contrasty, mostly dark, harsh highlights and all, but your eyes are still, steady, and to me seem to be softly fixed on no point very far away. To me the image conveys being deeply in thought, neither scared or horrified, nor sad and depressed... just far off, there and not all at once, in many emotions, but inbetween all of them in a way... in that way I think I recognize that one goes "off-line" and lets some non conscious part of the mind do it's work to sort things out. I certainly don't doubt this was a "dark moment" for you, but to my eye it is so much more... in a way I'm having trouble articulating, your face is atop some great, dark place and looking where to go next.

 

Well, I don't know if these observations, thoughts, reactions, whatever they are, are of value or help... they're how I'm presently able to express what I see in your self portrait - this particular one, that is. If I'd been with you at the moment I think I'd have said something like, "So, where are you now?"

 

Last (for now) is the same as the first: I love this image. As I've spent some time trying to describe what I see and how it strikes me, I realize it's my heart that loves it the most. I think any image that speaks to the heart is a huge success. (BTW, I think I can see why it scared your daughter: kids always get scared when they're parents are away.)

 

David

It is in our selves that we find ourselves. AND, I think you are right in what you say in regards to my eyes how they look up.

 

I find this actually one of my favorite self portraits. Maybe not my most attractive but I see a bit of my mom and dad and even my grandparents and then my kids in it. A bit of everything and then it was almost as if I was able to draw it also. I liked that.

Micki, all I can say is that this is one hell of an image. Have just been wrestling with Pnina Evental's work and this produces some of the same reactions. But this image is more hard-hitting rather than ambiguous. A lot of Ingmar Bergman here especially in the powerful light and deep emotive flavor. Another one to which I'll have to return several times. Outstanding, and more comments to come!

I don't know if I am getting better or more of ME is coming out in my stuff. Maybe my artistic side is finally coming through in my photography (with the new camera) and I am able to bring it forth more. I will say that every picture I do is a new study in photography. I love everything I do and this is another one I am extrememly proud of.

Here's how it goes: It's last night and I come here to leave a comment saying how much I love this shot of yours. Then I see that Fred has left a note with the same sort of thought. Well that reminds me that I should write one about his latest post. So I go to his site and write a comment. And then I think, oh yeah, there was one other thing I wanted to say about Micki's shot, so I click back here. And what do I find? I find that Fred has responded to my note to you. Well, his note is a nice one, but I bet you can see that the confusion starts right there. I think, maybe I have gone round the bend. Maybe this is Fred's site and I've gone nuts. So I click back to what I'm pretty sure really is Fred's site -- just to check things out -- and I find a note from you sort of responding to my note to Fred. Well, by now I'm panting like an old coyote in a dry creek bed. So I say, that's it, I'm going to bed.

Well now it's a new day and I still think this is beautiful portrait. Which is what I was saying last night when the confusion began. Regards, Joe